What I am going to do: go run 7 miles
What happened: I got derailed by a random train of thought
What I feel like doing: CRYING (because I do what I want)
What I’d like to do: Fix things. Undo stupidity. Not be me. That last one won’t happen - and that is ok. I may be a hot mess in some ways, but I am a wonderful person.
What will change: nothing, except what I can control.
How to try and stop this from happening again: learn to move on. forget things where you don’t matter. And that is ok Internet. Everyone doesn’t carry the same significance with everyone else. It’s ok, that is life. No one is bad. It is just sad when, for justifiable reasons, you lose a friend. Or at least you feel like you have or question if you ever did have a friend. Trust me - Moxy is quite capable of executing Plan “Bridge on the River Kwai” with inadvertent yet chillingly expert precision.
Sadly. I still need to go run my 7 miles. Only now I am limited to a boring loop. See what lingering does? It limits your possibilities.
Also - should I be disturbed that Nip looks so happy when I get sad? He is like a Sith “Yes. Yes. Your misery and tears only make me stronger.” Emperor Nip.